Saturday, December 31, 2011

Fall, free, and bandaged. These are humanity.

-Sin

bye 2011 - hello 2012

Facing the superb days of 2012 and saying goodbye to 2011. People come and go, but do you know if the memories do stay? Happy new year! :)

sisterhood stupid conversation

Latar: suatu sore di rumah keluarga yang memelihara hewan berbulu.

Mbak Ida: "Ih, temen gue ada yang piara hewan berbulu sampe sekarang ga punya anak loh."

Gue: "Temen gue ada yang piara hewan berbulu, belom nikah udah punya anak loh."

*kemudian sunyi senyap selama 3 detik*

*kemudian, LOL*

Monday, October 17, 2011

Penggaris

Menilai orang menggunakan penggaris lurus dengan titik nol di tengahnya.
Geser nilainya ke kiri untuk setiap kekurangan yang menjadi kekurangan.
Geser nilainya ke kanan untuk kekurangan yang menjadi kelebihan
Geser nilainya ke kiri untuk setiap kelebihan yang menjadi kekurangan
Geser nilainya ke kanan untuk setiap kelebihan yang memang melebihkan
Di dunia semua orang beda-beda, kelebihan nggak selalu membuat orang jadi 'lebih', bahkan kadang kekurangan bisa jadi kelebihan untuk sebagian orang.
Karena masa lalu nggak bisa diubah, tapi bisa berubah jadi pelajaran bagi yang bersedia.
Bahkan semakin kelam, nilainya pelajarannya makin tinggi bagi mereka yang waras.
Takut akan masa depan karena pernah melalui masa lalu? Ini namanya bodoh.
Masa depan itu belom ditulis, masih bersih. Lalu, ada alasan untuk takut? Pengecut.
Ini semua karena nggak ada manusia yang sempurna dan karena masa depan itu belom selesai ditulis.

-Sin
(gara-gara liat penggaris)

Tendency

It is alluring to be specific, but don't be over sensitive :)

-Sin

The Farmer

Saturday, October 15, 2011

what kind of life it is -___-

hahahaha. nyampah satu lagi ya. tadi postingnya ke-serius-an. gila ya. flat banget ini hidup. jadwal selama stase mata:
06.30 manasin mobil
07.00 nyampe poli mata
13.00 selesai pelayanan, lanjut makan
14.00 sampe kosan, leyeh-leyeh atau tidur siang
16.00 mandi
17.00 bengong sambil mikir yang udah kejadian hari itu
18.30 pergi makan
20.00 off to work
01.00 belajar mata
03.00 tidur
05.00 bangun

bosen parah. rontok ga badan kalo begini tiap hari? hahahah. 

Ego VS (lawan kata dari) Ego

Beberapa tahun lalu, ada orang yang pernah ngomong gini ke saya, "Sin, cuma masalah kaya gini aja kamu ga bisa lewatin? Kalo kamu ga bisa lewatin ini, kamu ga akan pernah naik ke level berikutnya. Kamu takut atau kamu ga punya Tuhan? Kasian saya sama kamu, pengharapan aja ga punya". Waktu itu saya masih cengeng. Saya masih punya banyak stok air mata. Lagipula baru kali itu ada orang yang bilang saya ga ber-Tuhan. Sadis.

Beberapa kalimat yang ga bisa saya lupakan. Sederhana, dalam, dan ga berputar-putar. Manusia seringkali menghanyutkan diri dalam perputaran lingkaran yang ga ada ujungnya. Ngakunya sih "saya ga bisa keluar", padahal sebenernya "saya ga mau keluar". Mau dan Bisa, keliatannya beda tipis. Padahal bedanya seratus delapan puluh derajat.
Scale Clip Art

Saturday, October 8, 2011

key-board conversation

X: "... and I'll be the sign board, when you go wrong way."
Y: "but please.. find my key first. I can't even go wrong without key".

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

:)

When you are sick, you will feel that health is very valuable. Note this :)
... and this is when friends become the pills of remedy :p

Sunday, September 25, 2011

man VS moving on

Siapa bilang laki-laki gampang moving on? Mereka bukannya gampang moving on, cuma mereka nggak bawel aja buat mengumbar galau kaya perempuan. Mungkin mereka cenderung realistis. Toh hidup emang harus realistis.
Sincerely,
(Sinta, 22th, coass ; freelancer; korban curhat; teman dekat dari seorang laki-laki yang ga berenti-berenti mikirin mantan pacarnya)
*big sigh* *getokpalasendiri* 

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

P.A.I.N

Feeling by hurt
Feeling by scalpels and blades
Felt in every single of my breath
It tortures me so damn hurt
Some pain(s) are real, some just unreal
Some just spoken, some just left unspoken
Some will be solved, some will be left unsolved
But all will be borne as cicatrix
I still remember how it hurt
Every single step
And a shade took part of hurting me the most

By hurt,
S

Monday, August 8, 2011

deleted

posting deleted! for those who has read my previous 'pahit-manis' posting, you can't find it anymore. i read it then i just feel oh-so-damn-effing lame by writing it. life should be realistic, shouldn't it? ;)

Monday, July 25, 2011

some words were left unspoken

There are some words, should be spoken
I have ever had time, choice, and chance
But I did not do it
I did not let my lips opened
It was locked, ... by me
Time is spinning around and i choose to keep in silent
And today let me remember about that unspoken words
All those words unspoken should be spoken
And again, ... I denied..

Saturday, July 23, 2011

[mobile-blogging] sunday trip

Sekarang saya lagi duduk di gerbong wanita kereta Prambanan Express jurusan Solo-Jogja. Minggu pagi ini keretanya ramai tapi sepi, soalnya ga ada seorang pun yang saya kenal. Hehe. Mau kemana saya? Kalo berdasar tujuan keretanya sih ya saya mau ke jogja. Ngapain? Hemm ngapain ya? Semacam mau jalan-jalan aja, lihat apa yang bisa saya lihat. Udah lama saya ga begini, menghilang dari solo dan ga ngajak siapa-siapa, sekedar buat self-trip.

Gerbong sebelah tampaknya penuh, padahal gerbong saya kosong melompong gini. Kenapa? Karena ini gerbong khusus wanita. Latar belakang adanya gerbong ini adalah atas pelecehan yang terjadi pada wanita. Apa segitu lemahnya kaum wanita? Segitu brengseknya kah laki-laki? Sampe gerbong aja musti dihijab. Saya ga tau ini semacam compliment atau underestimated way buat para wanuta. Sama sih kalo kita lagi ke mal, terus ada tulisan ladies parking di tempat yang parkirqnnya gampang. Hehe. Mencoba buat ga sinis, anggap aja itu sebagai compliment ya. Toh saya juga kadang pake fasilitas itu.

Sepertinya sekarang udah mau sampe klaten dan minuman kacang ijo yang saya bawa sudah tepat habis. Saya juga masih mikir ntar di jogja mau kemana. Any idea? Hehe. Nanti sore saya janjian sama dua orang temen deket saya. Janjian buat ngobrol tentang hidup (halah semacam berlebihan). Kami sudah berteman sejak kami berumur 12 tahun dan sekarang umur kami 22 tahun. Dari masih culun sampe sekarang, errr tapi masih tetep culun juga sih.

Sebentar lagi saya sampai di jogja (stasiun maguwo). Ah yasudahlah, saya mau berpikir dulu ya sebaiknya harus kemana.

Inside womens' train,

Woman

Friday, July 22, 2011

PSYCHOSOMATIC

why should mind affect the body? 

Tuhan Cuma Satu


I just remembered our (me and my two high school best buddies) blabber that happened 4 years ago. We talk about we call it 'agama' ...

Me: "Tadi pagi liat berita ga lo? Kasian ya orang ahmadiah diporakporandakan kaya gitu. Hemm sulit juga sih ya, siapa juga yang bisa menyalahbenerkan kepercayaan. Namanya juga percaya; faith. Diliat juga susah, makanya namanya kepercayaan. Percaya sukur, kalo engga juga ga bisa dipaksa"

A: "Iya kasian. Yang ngerusak juga semena-mena, kaya agamanya paling bener aja. Tapi semua agama ngajarin yang baik sih asal ga nyimpang. Tinggal dipilih aja mana yang cocok."

Friday, July 15, 2011

every hello has its goodbye

Good mid-night. It is hard to fall asleep right now. If i go back to a half year ago, i'll find my midnight(s) were oh so special. It was the time i was really looking forward. To be honest, it is so sad. Have you ever fallen before? I have, twice! The second has just happened two hours ago. Now i just try to re-collect the pieces, then make them all glued again. Yeah, that is life. To make whole broken into pieces, then make it whole again. It went to an end so fast, but i don't have any strength to avoid it.

I learn a lot about you, man. Even if you didn't tell me. You must be wondering, why i was still going with any unique part of you. I am wondering too. We said so many promises and they are broken. Anyway, it will be good times in my life. Massive thanks.

Ps: written for you :|


Regards,

Sin

Monday, April 11, 2011

swinging

The clock is always rotating
up then down then up then down ...
with no ending
I am lying down in the room, staring at the clock,
then the minutes beat me while the seconds are ticking

I was born as white paper but i found life has so many colors
Journey incised yellow, blue, red, or even black in that white one
All colors which are mixed into one, will be black with no tolerance
So? How is the white paper now?

Mom gives baby birth, Mom is loving, Mom is strong
Dad keeps, Dad supports, Dad judges
Woman comes from Venus, Man comes from Mars
They meet up in the Earth
Have you meet your woman or man in this Earth?
Search for person who flows tons of tears from couples of her eyes.
You found woman. Stupid one
Search for person who absorbs buckets of tears to his gut
You found man. Also stupid one

This is not a missery, this is melancholy, not to be understood

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Love will find its way - Selling flower

This supposed to be my first posting in 2011 because it's been saved in my draft since couples weeks ago. errr firstly i want to say.. HAPPY LATE NEW YEAR, FELLAS! GONG XI FA CAI! HAPPY VALENTINE! (for those who celebrate ;) ) Talk about new year, i found the beginning of 2011 walked perfectly. Umm actually, i think it went perfectly since the end of 2010. Life's always full of surprises, life is a fireworks. And those fireworks are played in my life right now. Couples months ago, i met this 'him' in a coincidence. 

It's been more than a year since my 'leg' was broken, since i have felt hurt in every single step. I say 2010 is year of self-time/ friendship/ family-time, and i enjoyed it so much. 2010 was so great, i learned about maturation and willingness.

Back to the headline "Love will find its way - Selling Flower". Why oh why? Because i went through this kind of experience. June 2010, one of my senior asked me to buy her two buckets of flower for her beloved friends who had their doctors' oath. I forwarded the request to my junior who usually sell flower in every graduation. Unluckily, they didn't plan to sell any flower that day. and my bad, i had to buy it by myself >.< The next day, i went to the venue of doctors' oath, brought that two buckets of flowers. One for the girl, then another for the boy. I waited for hours outside the room, looked at my watch, wondered the faces of two unknown people i had to find, and also being hungry.

Saturday, January 22, 2011

The Missing Greeting Card ;)

ini adalah hadiah ulang taun teman kami, dayu. gambar ini dibuat terus di-digitalprinting-in ke kaos gitu. terus kaosnya dijadiin kado deh. hehe. feel free to try as gift loh ;)

Companion in Arms

Okay, i am starting. We are college-mate and we met three and a half year ago. We are now doing our last semester of our pre-clinical study. I'll tell you first, the boy in the left side named weda, boy in the right side named emmanuel, girl in red named dayu, girl in pink named jo, girl in skin-like-colour named anggie, girl in green named nurul, and girl in white is me (honestly, there's two more missing, kiki and madean :( ). This picture was taken when we did our graduation photoshoot.

Talking about graduation, if God permits and everything is going well, we'll have our graduation by this March. We are really looking forward to have this kind of event after seven semesters with its up(s) and down(s). for the remedial test/ re-remedial/ re-re-remidial hahaha, for the research, for birthday blasts, for every single time. I feel so lucky to beat all of this college's things with you all guys. Thank you for this friendship that never  restrict my days and always let me have my personal areas. Thanks for friendship that always right at place and its portion :)

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

30 minutes posting

10.55 i started typing.
i just got bored with those OSCE-things. i said i had to make this post in 30 minutes or it would've never been posted. here we go.. :) To be honest, i still have to fulfill my promise to my partner, Mas Randy, to write a post tittled "Love will find its way - part 2". but it's still on progress because so much to write there, about those beautiful coincidences. It goes like drama, indeed! how we met up, how we connected, and how we were finally officially together. I say it was God's will.

11.11 okay, i just have 24 more minutes to write.
This post is random, or call it absurd. There's no any specific idea to be written here. Let's jump to another topic. Flight of idea? hahaha maybe. What do you think about self-independency? How important it is?

11.16 i got a calling from him :p, and i have 9 minutes for the rest -__-
In my humble opinion, self-independency takes a lot of part in someone's life. It's about how people save their lifes when the world doesn't spin like they want it to do. Life's spinning like a clock, sometimes up, then sometimes down. sometimes good, sometimes bad. sometimes climb up, then sometimes struck down. For all those spinning thingy(s), i choose to be a flexible person.

Climbing the mountain, going down to the valley
Doing any fancy dinner in deluxe restaurant, or even buying delicious food in an awning place :9
Take a flight, or take an economical train
Place my self in formal-organized-situation, or free my self in kinda silly-comfy-situation
Dress me in a chic dress, or put my self in short and tee.
Play the Side A or do the Side B

said in his way "It's your call" hahaha.

11.25 fin :)