PSYCHOSOMATIC

why should mind affect the body? 

Tuhan Cuma Satu

I just remembered our (me and my two high school best buddies) blabber that happened 4 years ago. We talk about we call it 'agama' ...

Me: "Tadi pagi liat berita ga lo? Kasian ya orang ahmadiah diporakporandakan kaya gitu. Hemm sulit juga sih ya, siapa juga yang bisa menyalahbenerkan kepercayaan. Namanya juga percaya; faith. Diliat juga susah, makanya namanya kepercayaan. Percaya sukur, kalo engga juga ga bisa dipaksa"

A: "Iya kasian. Yang ngerusak juga semena-mena, kaya agamanya paling bener aja. Tapi semua agama ngajarin yang baik sih asal ga nyimpang. Tinggal dipilih aja mana yang cocok."

every hello has its goodbye

Good mid-night. It is hard to fall asleep right now. If i go back to a half year ago, i'll find my midnight(s) were oh so special. It was the time i was really looking forward. To be honest, it is so sad. Have you ever fallen before? I have, twice! The second has just happened two hours ago. Now i just try to re-collect the pieces, then make them all glued again. Yeah, that is life. To make whole broken into pieces, then make it whole again. It went to an end so fast, but i don't have any strength to avoid it.

I learn a lot about you, man. Even if you didn't tell me. You must be wondering, why i was still going with any unique part of you. I am wondering too. We said so many promises and they are broken. Anyway, it will be good times in my life. Massive thanks.

Ps: written for you :|


Regards,

Sin

Should I Walk Through This?

:'(

swinging

The clock is always rotating
up then down then up then down ...
with no ending

I am lying down in the room, staring at the clock,
then the minutes beat me while the seconds are ticking

I was born as white paper but i found life has so many colors

Journey incised yellow, blue, red, or even black in that white one

All colors which are mixed into one, will be black with no tolerance

So? How is the white paper now?

Mom gives baby birth, Mom is loving, Mom is strong

Dad keeps, Dad supports, Dad judges

Woman comes from Venus, Man comes from Mars

They meet up in the Earth

Have you meet your woman or man in this Earth?

Search for person who flows tons of tears from couples of her eyes.

You found woman. Stupid one

Search for person who absorbs buckets of tears to his gut

You found man. Also stupid one

This is not a missery, this is melancholy, not to be understood

Love will find its way - Selling flower

This supposed to be my first posting in 2011 because it's been saved in my draft since couples weeks ago. errr firstly i want to say.. HAPPY LATE NEW YEAR, FELLAS! GONG XI FA CAI! HAPPY VALENTINE! (for those who celebrate ;) ) Talk about new year, i found the beginning of 2011 walked perfectly. Umm actually, i think it went perfectly since the end of 2010. Life's always full of surprises, life is a fireworks. And those fireworks are played in my life right now. Couples months ago, i met this 'him' in a coincidence. 

It's been more than a year since my 'leg' was broken, since i have felt hurt in every single step. I say 2010 is year of self-time/ friendship/ family-time, and i enjoyed it so much. 2010 was so great, i learned about maturation and willingness.

Back to the headline "Love will find its way - Selling Flower". Why oh why? Because i went through this kind of experience. June 2010, one of my senior asked me to buy her two buckets of flower for her beloved friends who had their doctors' oath. I forwarded the request to my junior who usually sell flower in every graduation. Unluckily, they didn't plan to sell any flower that day. and my bad, i had to buy it by myself >.< The next day, i went to the venue of doctors' oath, brought that two buckets of flowers. One for the girl, then another for the boy. I waited for hours outside the room, looked at my watch, wondered the faces of two unknown people i had to find, and also being hungry.

The Missing Greeting Card ;)

ini adalah hadiah ulang taun teman kami, dayu. gambar ini dibuat terus di-digitalprinting-in ke kaos gitu. terus kaosnya dijadiin kado deh. hehe. feel free to try as gift loh ;)

Companion in Arms

Okay, i am starting. We are college-mate and we met three and a half year ago. We are now doing our last semester of our pre-clinical study. I'll tell you first, the boy in the left side named weda, boy in the right side named emmanuel, girl in red named dayu, girl in pink named jo, girl in skin-like-colour named anggie, girl in green named nurul, and girl in white is me (honestly, there's two more missing, kiki and madean :( ). This picture was taken when we did our graduation photoshoot.

Talking about graduation, if God permits and everything is going well, we'll have our graduation by this March. We are really looking forward to have this kind of event after seven semesters with its up(s) and down(s). for the remedial test/ re-remedial/ re-re-remidial hahaha, for the research, for birthday blasts, for every single time. I feel so lucky to beat all of this college's things with you all guys. Thank you for this friendship that never  restrict my days and always let me have my personal areas. Thanks for friendship that always right at place and its portion :)

30 minutes posting

10.55 i started typing.

i just got bored with those OSCE-things. i said i had to make this post in 30 minutes or it would've never been posted. here we go.. :) To be honest, i still have to fulfill my promise to my partner, Mas Randy, to write a post tittled "Love will find its way - part 2". but it's still on progress because so much to write there, about those beautiful coincidences. It goes like drama, indeed! how we met up, how we connected, and how we were finally officially together. I say it was God's will.

11.11 okay, i just have 24 more minutes to write.

This post is random, or call it absurd. There's no any specific idea to be written here. Let's jump to another topic. Flight of idea? hahaha maybe. What do you think about self-independency? How important it is?

11.16 i got a calling from him :p, and i have 9 minutes for the rest -__-

In my humble opinion, self-independency takes a lot of part in someone's life. It's about how people save their lifes when the world doesn't spin like they want it to do. Life's spinning like a clock, sometimes up, then sometimes down. sometimes good, sometimes bad. sometimes climb up, then sometimes struck down. For all those spinning thingy(s), i choose to be a flexible person.

Climbing the mountain, going down to the valley

Doing any fancy dinner in deluxe restaurant, or even buying delicious food in an awning place :9

Take a flight, or take an economical train

Place my self in formal-organized-situation, or free my self in kinda silly-comfy-situation

Dress me in a chic dress, or put my self in short and tee.

Play the Side A or do the Side B

said in his way "It's your call" hahaha.

11.25 fin :)

Jalan-Jalan Sore

Dua hari yang lalu gw melakukan sesi "Jalan-Jalan Sore" sendirian. Awalnya cuma karena mau beli catridge printer ke toko buku, tapi ya nanggunglah muter-muter aja sekalian. Kadang emang butuh kegiatan seperti itu, pergi di cuaca mendung, dengerin radio di mobil, nyanyi-nyanyi ga jelas. Yah pokoknya ignoring the world lah hehe. Somehow, waktu itu solo ramenya bukan main dan polisi berdiri dimana-mana bikin bingung aja. Entah siapa yang mau lewat, sepenting apa orang yang mau lewat, dan se-tajir apa orang yang mau lewat sampai mereka ga mau bagi-bagi jalan sama kaum fakir. hahaha entahlah. Gw pernah baca kalo di Philiphina itu seorang presiden akan rela mengantri di tengah kemacetan bersama rakyatnya. Gw ber-standing ovation buat itu, you'll take it to a better place if you feel it directly. Haha udah deh bahas-bahasan tentang forider-nya, bukan itu yang mau gw ceritain.

Kemaren itu karena gw membawa kamera jadi yaudah deh "ckrik-ckrik" random gitu di jalan. Ada beberapa kejadian yang sebenernya ga umum tapi telah menjadi umum di budaya kita. Gambar pertama itu ada pemuda bermain gitar di perempatan Bank Indonesia. Suaranya ga terlalu bagus, badannya tegap, terlalu sayang untuk jadi penjaja musik di jalan.Yah tapi itulah hidup, serba penuh pilihan meskipun kadang ga semua hal itu bisa dipilih hehe. 

Ini foto random yang kedua, kejadiannya di daerah Nonongan. Like mom, like daughter. Yep! Ibunya mengajak anaknya mengemis, menyandarkan nasib pada orang lain. Iya sih memang hal-hal itu kaya rantai setan. Pengemudi dermawan -> peminta bergantung nasib -> habit -> easy money oriented -> continously cycling -> mental of beggars. And it is just sad. Gw pun suka dilema gitu, kadang ngasih kadang enggak. Lagi-lagi hidup pun isinya pilihan. Pilihan jalan mana yang mau diajarkan ke anak. Pilihan buat ngasih apa enggak :P

Foto terakhir ya dari "Jalan-Jalan Sore" kemarin. Sebenernya masih buanyak banget foto-fotnya, cuma capek deskripsiinnya >.< Nah ini foto diambil gara-gara gw iseng. Mumpung kena lampu merah dan ternyata ada beberapa pengendara motor yang otaknya seringkali ngawur. hahaha. Masa berenti aja di zebra cross. Lagi-lagi hidup isinya pilihan. Choice for go with the rules or break the rules. Dua-duanya pasti ada esensinya. Ga selamanya patuh peraturan itu baek, dan ga selalu yang namanya melanggar peraturan itu buruk. Yah, just keep it balanced lah :)

See you in another late afternoon,

sin