some words were left unspoken

There are some words, should be spoken
I have ever had time, choice, and chance
But I did not do it
I did not let my lips opened
It was locked, ... by me
Time is spinning around and i choose to keep in silent
And today let me remember about that unspoken words
All those words unspoken should be spoken
And again, ... I denied..

[mobile-blogging] sunday trip

Sekarang saya lagi duduk di gerbong wanita kereta Prambanan Express jurusan Solo-Jogja. Minggu pagi ini keretanya ramai tapi sepi, soalnya ga ada seorang pun yang saya kenal. Hehe. Mau kemana saya? Kalo berdasar tujuan keretanya sih ya saya mau ke jogja. Ngapain? Hemm ngapain ya? Semacam mau jalan-jalan aja, lihat apa yang bisa saya lihat. Udah lama saya ga begini, menghilang dari solo dan ga ngajak siapa-siapa, sekedar buat self-trip.

Gerbong sebelah tampaknya penuh, padahal gerbong saya kosong melompong gini. Kenapa? Karena ini gerbong khusus wanita. Latar belakang adanya gerbong ini adalah atas pelecehan yang terjadi pada wanita. Apa segitu lemahnya kaum wanita? Segitu brengseknya kah laki-laki? Sampe gerbong aja musti dihijab. Saya ga tau ini semacam compliment atau underestimated way buat para wanuta. Sama sih kalo kita lagi ke mal, terus ada tulisan ladies parking di tempat yang parkirqnnya gampang. Hehe. Mencoba buat ga sinis, anggap aja itu sebagai compliment ya. Toh saya juga kadang pake fasilitas itu.

Sepertinya sekarang udah mau sampe klaten dan minuman kacang ijo yang saya bawa sudah tepat habis. Saya juga masih mikir ntar di jogja mau kemana. Any idea? Hehe. Nanti sore saya janjian sama dua orang temen deket saya. Janjian buat ngobrol tentang hidup (halah semacam berlebihan). Kami sudah berteman sejak kami berumur 12 tahun dan sekarang umur kami 22 tahun. Dari masih culun sampe sekarang, errr tapi masih tetep culun juga sih.

Sebentar lagi saya sampai di jogja (stasiun maguwo). Ah yasudahlah, saya mau berpikir dulu ya sebaiknya harus kemana.

Inside womens' train,

Woman

PSYCHOSOMATIC

why should mind affect the body? 

Tuhan Cuma Satu

I just remembered our (me and my two high school best buddies) blabber that happened 4 years ago. We talk about we call it 'agama' ...

Me: "Tadi pagi liat berita ga lo? Kasian ya orang ahmadiah diporakporandakan kaya gitu. Hemm sulit juga sih ya, siapa juga yang bisa menyalahbenerkan kepercayaan. Namanya juga percaya; faith. Diliat juga susah, makanya namanya kepercayaan. Percaya sukur, kalo engga juga ga bisa dipaksa"

A: "Iya kasian. Yang ngerusak juga semena-mena, kaya agamanya paling bener aja. Tapi semua agama ngajarin yang baik sih asal ga nyimpang. Tinggal dipilih aja mana yang cocok."

every hello has its goodbye

Good mid-night. It is hard to fall asleep right now. If i go back to a half year ago, i'll find my midnight(s) were oh so special. It was the time i was really looking forward. To be honest, it is so sad. Have you ever fallen before? I have, twice! The second has just happened two hours ago. Now i just try to re-collect the pieces, then make them all glued again. Yeah, that is life. To make whole broken into pieces, then make it whole again. It went to an end so fast, but i don't have any strength to avoid it.

I learn a lot about you, man. Even if you didn't tell me. You must be wondering, why i was still going with any unique part of you. I am wondering too. We said so many promises and they are broken. Anyway, it will be good times in my life. Massive thanks.

Ps: written for you :|


Regards,

Sin

Should I Walk Through This?

:'(

swinging

The clock is always rotating
up then down then up then down ...
with no ending

I am lying down in the room, staring at the clock,
then the minutes beat me while the seconds are ticking

I was born as white paper but i found life has so many colors

Journey incised yellow, blue, red, or even black in that white one

All colors which are mixed into one, will be black with no tolerance

So? How is the white paper now?

Mom gives baby birth, Mom is loving, Mom is strong

Dad keeps, Dad supports, Dad judges

Woman comes from Venus, Man comes from Mars

They meet up in the Earth

Have you meet your woman or man in this Earth?

Search for person who flows tons of tears from couples of her eyes.

You found woman. Stupid one

Search for person who absorbs buckets of tears to his gut

You found man. Also stupid one

This is not a missery, this is melancholy, not to be understood

Love will find its way - Selling flower

This supposed to be my first posting in 2011 because it's been saved in my draft since couples weeks ago. errr firstly i want to say.. HAPPY LATE NEW YEAR, FELLAS! GONG XI FA CAI! HAPPY VALENTINE! (for those who celebrate ;) ) Talk about new year, i found the beginning of 2011 walked perfectly. Umm actually, i think it went perfectly since the end of 2010. Life's always full of surprises, life is a fireworks. And those fireworks are played in my life right now. Couples months ago, i met this 'him' in a coincidence. 

It's been more than a year since my 'leg' was broken, since i have felt hurt in every single step. I say 2010 is year of self-time/ friendship/ family-time, and i enjoyed it so much. 2010 was so great, i learned about maturation and willingness.

Back to the headline "Love will find its way - Selling Flower". Why oh why? Because i went through this kind of experience. June 2010, one of my senior asked me to buy her two buckets of flower for her beloved friends who had their doctors' oath. I forwarded the request to my junior who usually sell flower in every graduation. Unluckily, they didn't plan to sell any flower that day. and my bad, i had to buy it by myself >.< The next day, i went to the venue of doctors' oath, brought that two buckets of flowers. One for the girl, then another for the boy. I waited for hours outside the room, looked at my watch, wondered the faces of two unknown people i had to find, and also being hungry.

The Missing Greeting Card ;)

ini adalah hadiah ulang taun teman kami, dayu. gambar ini dibuat terus di-digitalprinting-in ke kaos gitu. terus kaosnya dijadiin kado deh. hehe. feel free to try as gift loh ;)

Companion in Arms

Okay, i am starting. We are college-mate and we met three and a half year ago. We are now doing our last semester of our pre-clinical study. I'll tell you first, the boy in the left side named weda, boy in the right side named emmanuel, girl in red named dayu, girl in pink named jo, girl in skin-like-colour named anggie, girl in green named nurul, and girl in white is me (honestly, there's two more missing, kiki and madean :( ). This picture was taken when we did our graduation photoshoot.

Talking about graduation, if God permits and everything is going well, we'll have our graduation by this March. We are really looking forward to have this kind of event after seven semesters with its up(s) and down(s). for the remedial test/ re-remedial/ re-re-remidial hahaha, for the research, for birthday blasts, for every single time. I feel so lucky to beat all of this college's things with you all guys. Thank you for this friendship that never  restrict my days and always let me have my personal areas. Thanks for friendship that always right at place and its portion :)